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Friday, May 18, 2007

Fri, 18 May 2007 15:54:13 GMT

Opening Night went so well. I was so happy. And we got an awesome review. Sue didn't use a single negative word. I realized how big this thing was that I am a part of. I love it.

Monday, May 07, 2007

Mon, 07 May 2007 02:27:47 GMT

So, I checked my grades today and somehow I managed to stay above a 3.5. Hallelujah! And that is with an actual grade for Tech II Which means I don't have to make up any of the hours this summer since Tom forgot to give me an incomplete. I was very happy.

I find it funny how my life seems to go in cycles all the time. I am so in the "lonely" state right now. I just want somebody. I started missing Dan today which is weird since I stopped having feelings for him a few weeks after we broke things off. I just miss having someone to hold and to come back to everyday or two.

Who wants to find me a someone?

I start my summer class tomorrow. I've never done this before, it should be interesting.

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 18:40:09 GMT

What is it Lord, that you want and that I am seeing.
What in my innocent prayers am I failing to say?
Never before have I questioned the truth of your being.
Never once have I dared, never until today.
All over tremble I stand on the edge of confusion,
Who is to save me if into the darkness I fall?
Now that I need more then ever my God to be near me,
Do you hear when I call?
Are you there after all?

You have to be there, you have to
My life I have placed in thy keep.
And without you I am drifting on a dark and stormy sea.
You have to be there, you have to.
Without you I drown in the deep.
Too far, too far from land
the waters drag me down, I reach for your hand.

Monday, April 23, 2007

Mon, 23 Apr 2007 03:25:47 GMT

So I realized today that I haven't written in this thing in forever. I also haven't written in my journal in an even longer time considering it doesn't even have an entry about Dan in it and that's been over for quite some time.

I need to get through the next two weeks and I honestly am not too sure that I will be able to.

Crap.

I will be out of the house in less than five months. Woo-hoo

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 02:56:46 GMT

Things were going so well. We had two wonderful weeks and now it's been two weeks of awkwardness and being unsure of what anything means. He left yesterday for nine days. Abscence makes the heart grow fonder? We shall see, we shall see.

Friday, February 16, 2007

Fri, 16 Feb 2007 02:45:34 GMT

I have never missed anyone this much in my entire life...this is a good thing.

Monday, February 05, 2007

Mon, 05 Feb 2007 16:31:23 GMT

It does no good to ask me for my number if you don't call it...

Honestly.

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Wed, 31 Jan 2007 19:38:14 GMT

Mixed CD, No Bake Cookies, Drop Dead Gorgeous and time with the siblings makes for a wonderful evening.

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 12:47:18 GMT

If I just lay here...

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Wed, 24 Jan 2007 02:27:32 GMT

The bro knows.

Huge weight lifted off my shoulders.

Incredible experience.

If you need to know you understand.